EDIT: I had another seizure yesterday morning, and I’m now on medication and waiting to see a neurologist. I’m trying really fucking hard not to stress, but because I had a second seizure so quickly after the first, there’s probably something quite wrong… and not knowing is in itself stressful. We’re also moving house this weekend, and I’m WAY behind in my studies.
Only a week after my sister’s stint in hospital, I spent my morning in a hospital bed following a tonic-clonic seizure. Because of my ME and fibromyalgia, I had gotten quite used to feeling crappy… but last night, I was feeling really strange unlike I had ever felt before. I just went to bed and figured I’d just sleep it off. I did sleep… but I didn’t “sleep it off”.
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At just before 7:30am before Sam’s alarm was due to go off, I started having the seizure. I was asleep when it happened, so I had no idea what was going on until I woke up at around ten to 8 with a paramedic hovering over me. According to Sam and my sister, I was quite out of it because they asked me what day it was and I said Sunday (it’s Tuesday!). I still don’t remember the actual seizure, which is apparently normal, but I remember the ambulance ride and the fairly long wait at the hospital.
I am mostly okay now, but because my body was convulsing and my muscles were contracting, I’m pretty damn sore. Seizures and fibromyalgia? Not a good mix. I also bit my tongue quite badly, but that I can deal with.
The seizure made a whole lot of sense though, because all day yesterday I was experiencing the aura that commonly happens before tonic-clonic seizures. That’s what the strange feeling was. It was caused by the huge amount of stress I was under, on top of my ME symptoms which I had been trying to hide rather than deal with. I think I’ve learnt now to just stop, or at least slow the fuck down when I feel like crap now.
The stress should lessen a little now that Sam and I found a place to live1 and my lecturers are being lenient on due dates for assignments for me, so that’s quite a bit of pressure off. The only thing I’m really worried about now is the job training I may have to do before I finish this last semester.
- He signed the tenancy agreement today, but because I couldn’t be there, I still have to sign as well when we pick up the keys on Thursday.
